Social media is growing, so does my insecurity

How can you measure someone's happiness? It's easy nowadays, just stalk their social media. Have you ever, I bet you have, stalk your friends' social media such as Instagram, Path, Facebook, whatsoever that made you came to a conclusion, "Gosh he/she have a perfect life"?
Have you ever felt that, you are so alone in this massive world of social media, you are connected to many of your friends yet you are still feel like, "No, I have no friends"?

Many insecurities came up to my mind after I stalk my friends' Instagram. Go to a luxury cafe, have a nice food for brunch that you cannot resist to not to photograph it, have an amateur photo shoot in an "enchanted" forest, go to an art gallery, a museum, and so many places that are good to post on your Instagram or to check your Path in. Yes, you have been there, right?

Because, I have no time, no money, or no friends to do that stuff with. Yes I do have money--but not for that stuff. These social media platform make me realize and went to a deep think, "Do I REALLY have friends?"

Many events in my life that end up me thinking "I have so many fake friends". I know that I should not pour myself with such negativity but I can't bear it. My insecurity towards my friends just grow and grow just because I take a glance at my friends' Instagram. Why I am not invited hanging out with them? Why she's not liking my newest post? Why she's not replying my comment? Why she can have so many friends? And so on and so on.

I miss myself when I'm free with those negative thoughts. I completely do not have any idea that social media could affect me this way. And I really understand that nowadays, someone's level of popularity or "gaulness" is measured by how many likes on their Instagram, how many love they get on their Path, how many "You are so beautiful!" comments on their selfies--oh yeah I completely understand.

And so I also know that those people only show what they want you to see--those luxury cafe, those photogenic foods, those expensive places for hanging out. But it doesn't decrease my insecurity level.

I don't know why I share this on my blog. Maybe because I don't know where to share my thoughts (or my feelings) without sounds so cheesy and pathetic. But this post is pathetic (lol).